Relevant magazine

May 26, 2006

Don't buy it. I have a subscription and it seems to me that it's all about how to be an american christian.

A question

May 23, 2006

Is God free?

Writing

May 4, 2006

What it takes to be a writer.

Yesterday me and wife started going to the "40 day with purpose" program that they're doing in the church we sometimes go to. It was very interesting. And it was good for a lot of different reasons.

The guy in charge was one of the pastors of the church. A positive man, with good attitude and what I'd call, a simple approach to christianity. A man of faith, a smile and who's sort of got the formula working. A good guy.

His entire family was there. 3 daughters and his teenage son. Also a woman named Ana, and a middle aged couple. All good people.

First there's this introductory video, where a pastor said that through the DVD that a life without a purpose was empty, void, meaningless. All of this based on Eclesiastes 1 (which I enjoyed a lot). I like Salomon's depression after staring at life for a while.

Then the pastor explained the good things that come with a purpose. Motivation and focus. (Those two stood out).

The good thing is that people get to talk from time to time, you know, say what "you think" about a certain subject. This was funny, because I got to know a bit about myself. I had a strong desire to take over the entire thing and give long speeches about every single thing. But sure enough, I would have enjoyed that more than the rest of the people. 🙂

So here's a bit of what people feel about life the most:

  • That it's out of control.
  • That it's emptiness.

And what people feel a life with a purpose would be is:

  • Having motivation.
  • Having a clear goal.
  • Sharing your load with God.

So that was the basic outline of what happened there.

Now here's a bit of stuff I thought of. The pastor mentioned that he came to Christ out of fear of eternal damnation. Why did you come to Christ at the very beggining?

That's when it hit me!!! I could remember perfectly! The only reason I came to Jesus was out love and the desire to seek God. Jesus charmed me with his parables. He was so misterious. He was so different and his teachings so strange to me. I remember that I didn't know the New Testament texts. It was so amazing.

Thanks to the pastor's question I was able to see that I wasn't drawn to God through fear (is it actually possible to be drawn to anyone through fear?). I was taught fear through the church. I learned from them about the supposedly existing problem of "saved" or "unsaved," about "accepting Jesus" and about "eternal conscious torment."

Anyways, the good thing is knowing that I started on the right foot. Which by the way, I have no intention of leaving.

Also, it was so funny to see that the average evangelical's belief about eternal life in "heaven" is exactly the same as the Egyptian Osirian religion. (My stepdad being an egyptologist, I was able to enjoy this). Funny that evangelicals mention egypt as "the bad guys" not knowing that they have inherited so much of their beliefs from them.

So all of this was from only one night. It'll be 5 weeks of group meetings. I hope I learn and make the best of it. Me and Yeri.

The problem with time

April 24, 2006

I really need to get rid of the "I don't have time" idea. Every human being has the same amount of time. It's just that some know how to use it, others don't. I'm in the don't team.

I have to make the time for prayer. Else, I'm not going anywhere.

Origin of Dion Pugil

April 22, 2006

The name Dion Pugil is taken from an amazing story:

The Father Confessor. By Herman Hesse.

By the way, if you haven't read any good books lately, pick up Siddhartha by Hesse. You won't regret it. In fact you will wonder why in the world no one told you to read it before. (Sorry, I had forgoten to tell you).

If you do… visit The Ooze from time to time. It's one hell of a mess.

I guess we all grow from all that happens, but boy oh boy. Seems like we're all pretty much into anger and hatred lately. And I'm really one of those. Always angry, always pissed off at something.

I think a break will be good.

Love, peace, good thoughts, and mercy are good for me. A little less hatred might also do me some good. A little less anger at God, christianity, (traditionally considered) orthodoxy, post-modernist christians, friends, family and loved ones will most surely be a positive thing in my life.

So if you want a bit of peace… don't visit for a while. Not if you're in the mood for a fight.

Oh and don't get me wrong. I love the place. Just not lately.