2 Religions? Divided heart?
January 6, 2006
Note:This is a “draft” I had never posted. It’s been saved in my blog for a while. I’ll never finish the article. But at least you’ll know what was on my mind like a month and a half ago. It’s still relevant.
Since you guys are my friends, I’ll try and expose some of what I am and how I live. (Simply because it’s cool to let people know the truth).
The way I see things is like this: it’s like I’ve got 2 belief systems. Let me see if I can explain myself.
One system is the “Christian” system. It’s based on the “right/wrong” that I can see in the Bible. And thank God for this. He is my saviour, and don’t get me wrong, I am nothing without Jesus and his mercy.
But here’s the other system, it’s the “Personal” system. It’s besed on what I believe in my heart and percieve that is true and “ok” in life. So many things that are “wrong” in the Christian belief system are “right” in my personal beliefs. Maybe “so many” is an exaggeration, but there are some things though.
Like when I asked about astrology and why it was considered wrong (Asked in theOoze). I got so many answers and still most of them don’t sound as logical or true to me. It’s like I don’t care. I see no sense in the answers. So what do I do? I keep my personal view.
Other religions? Well I’d rather you practice any other religion than none at all. I believe they are all true in many ways. They are humanity’s approach to God originating in many different parts of this world and in many different times.
(They are different because we all are different. From Costa Rica to USA you have no idea the amount of differences we have. And we’re in the same continent! Imagine from being born here and being born in the Congo.)
Are they the same as christianity. No they’re not. I believe Jesus is God. I believe he is different from anyone else. But I believe that All religions reach out to him. I’m not even sure I should interfere with someone’s religious life.
I mean there’s so much beauty in all of them.
Also, I believe that Judaism/Christianity inherited so many things from other religions (Egyptian and Mesopotamian) that it seems a little “naive” to now claim that “all other religions are wrong.” Chritianity owes in part to “other” religions.
So why am I like this? How can these maybe “contradicting” views live inside myself? Sometimes I fear that I’m not even Christian. But that’s the Christian in me talking to me. (Do you see the crazyness of this?)
Anyways. Seraphim what do you think? David? Darla? Anne?
Is this really wrong as in the sense that “I can’t see it’s wrong?”
BTW, I am posting this because I’m trying to be ONE. No more being two. I’ll try and be the one I am. Like I said to a girl in the Ooze “Genuine always beats the shit out of manufactured in my book.”