November 22, 2005
A friend once said about himself:
I think the best way to describe my state is overwhelmed. Too many religions, non-religions, philosophies, denominations, spiritualisms—I’ll never understand it all, and never be able to make an “educated” decision that what I believe is correct.
Today, since early in the morning I felt like this. My mind was a real mess. I was anxious. I felt empty and sad. I felt lost.
Taoism; Christianism; Sufism; Emergent; Emergence; Science; God; In; Out; Silence; Contemplation; Meditation; Zen; Buddhism; Sin; Redemption; Hell; Forgiveness; Jesus; Father; Nature; Love; Hate; Loneliness; Friendship; Sheep; Goats; Universe.
I got on my knees. I let my forehead touch the ground. “Jesus, without you I am nothing. I’m really nothing, nothing. I don’t know even know hot to pray.”
All I can say is Jesus is faithful. A few minutes after that he already answered my prayer. I knew he was with me.
So if you’re reading this and relate to this state of overwhelming too-muchness, Jesus is with you. He is.
Know it deep down inside, know it.