See ya in a while

July 27, 2006

I can’t post in blogs and such. I always enter my “debate” mode. Which I hate and leads to nowhere. I’m not about to “discuss” who’s right about God and life. Who in the world knows?
Hopefully one day I’ll be “free as in freedom” and be able to express my thoughts in “non-violence” mode.

You see. I was poisoned before in my life by thoughts of a God that could get mad out of the blue. I’m detoxicating… but I guess it takes longer than I thought.  When I find freedom of thought I guess I’ll write. 🙂 see ya guys.


Free as in Freedom

July 27, 2006

In another blog I posted the question I had posted here before: “Is God free?”. The only answer I got was “yeah, but no.” 🙂
I say yes. Free as in freedom.

I asked this question before, because I notice that in many christian circles an un-free theology is taught and accepted.

God wants to receive you, but since you haven’t repented, he can’t.

God wants to listen to your prayers, but since you haven’t received Jesus, he can’t.

Turns out that people have lots of explanations for these sort of problems. God’s love is always present, but his holiness won’t allow him to do so and so. Who came up with these theories? Isn’t it a bit big to think we’ve got it all figured out?

Isn’t “I don’t know” a better answer than thinking God is bound to our theology? Is there no more mystery left in the entire universe that we even know all of the answers, even of the Supreme Being?

Three men had sick friends in the hospital. One was a Rabbi, the other was a Pastor, the other was a Punk. They all sat down in chairs, in different rooms, waiting for news about their sick loved ones. All of them at one point closed their eyes and prayed “God, please save my friend. Please.”

Who of those men did God listen to? What does your gut feeling say to you?

Do read

July 24, 2006

Brief moments of lucidity.

This is when I think God likes us most. When there’s less bull, and more real.


July 24, 2006

“Lately I’ve been feeling low, and a remedy’s what I’m looking for, cooking for.”

-Dave Matthews Band

That verse from DMB simply came to my mind right before I’d start to tell about what I’ve been up to lately.

I’m feeling good. Thank God my health has been OK, and that hasn’t been a problem since I left the hospital. I’ve been going to the gym for a couple of days now. I intend to keep on going, Lord willing.

I’m reading Thomas Keating. I’m practicing Centering Prayer. I’m doing a version I’ve got cooked that’s basically Centering Prayer and some practical lessons by Sakyong Rinpoche.

Amazing!It’s been a crazy 2 months. I’ve read a bunch of crazy philosophy and esoteric works. Fantastic works.

I read “Meetings with remarkable men” by Gurdjieff, half of “In search of the miraculous” by P.D. Ouspensky, listened to tons of Alan Watts from his audio archives. I’ve learned in 2 months a lot about Hinduism, Buddhism and Zen Buddhism. And I’ve learned about the ancient Jewish religion of the Old Testament and about Christianity too.

God is very good. And I’ve enjoyed this time very much. My life is very blessed. It’s always been. Thank God.

I hope you guys are OK. Please let me know how you’re doing.


Pray for me

June 11, 2006

Pray for me. My health. I'm doing ok, but I just wanna feel ok.

How are all you guys doing?

The sleeping brother

June 8, 2006

Some old men went to Abba Poemen and asked,"If we see brothers sleeping during the common prayer, should we wake them?"
Abba Poemen answered,
"If I see my brother sleeping, I put his head on my knees
and let him rest."
Then one old man spoke up,
"And how do you explain yourself before God?"
Abba Poemen replied,
"I say to God: You have said, 'First take the beam out of your own eye and then you will be able to remove the splinter from the eye of your brother.' "
Taken from "Stories from the Desert Fathers".

Restless seeker

May 28, 2006

"I was in such a hurry to find God, that I forgot to pray!"