You see. I was poisoned before in my life by thoughts of a God that could get mad out of the blue. I’m detoxicating… but I guess it takes longer than I thought.  When I find freedom of thought I guess I’ll write. see ya guys.

I asked this question before, because I notice that in many christian circles an un-free theology is taught and accepted.

God wants to receive you, but since you haven’t repented, he can’t.

God wants to listen to your prayers, but since you haven’t received Jesus, he can’t.

Turns out that people have lots of explanations for these sort of problems. God’s love is always present, but his holiness won’t allow him to do so and so. Who came up with these theories? Isn’t it a bit big to think we’ve got it all figured out?

Isn’t “I don’t know” a better answer than thinking God is bound to our theology? Is there no more mystery left in the entire universe that we even know all of the answers, even of the Supreme Being?

Three men had sick friends in the hospital. One was a Rabbi, the other was a Pastor, the other was a Punk. They all sat down in chairs, in different rooms, waiting for news about their sick loved ones. All of them at one point closed their eyes and prayed “God, please save my friend. Please.”

Who of those men did God listen to? What does your gut feeling say to you?

This is when I think God likes us most. When there’s less bull, and more real.

“Lately I’ve been feeling low, and a remedy’s what I’m looking for, cooking for.”

-Dave Matthews Band

That verse from DMB simply came to my mind right before I’d start to tell about what I’ve been up to lately.

I’m feeling good. Thank God my health has been OK, and that hasn’t been a problem since I left the hospital. I’ve been going to the gym for a couple of days now. I intend to keep on going, Lord willing.

I’m reading Thomas Keating. I’m practicing Centering Prayer. I’m doing a version I’ve got cooked that’s basically Centering Prayer and some practical lessons by Sakyong Rinpoche.

It’s been a crazy 2 months. I’ve read a bunch of crazy philosophy and esoteric works. Fantastic works.

I read “Meetings with remarkable men” by Gurdjieff, half of “In search of the miraculous” by P.D. Ouspensky, listened to tons of Alan Watts from his audio archives. I’ve learned in 2 months a lot about Hinduism, Buddhism and Zen Buddhism. And I’ve learned about the ancient Jewish religion of the Old Testament and about Christianity too.

God is very good. And I’ve enjoyed this time very much. My life is very blessed. It’s always been. Thank God.

I hope you guys are OK. Please let me know how you’re doing.

How are all you guys doing?